Being Real and Blogging
September 14, 2017

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I’m having a hard time posting lately….I seem to be stuck somewhere between. Between what I’ve always blogged about and what I’m truly passionate about. Between being a private person (by nature) and vulnerability. Between beginnings and endings.

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Some days I like to post about makeup (yesterday to be exact) and other days, deep matters of the heart. I like sharing books and Bible verses. I love pretty spaces and talking about the broken places. There are days I want to share beauty and then other days I wish I could be totally free to say ….”today sucks, majorly” (I tend to try to keep it positive, even when things are falling apart. Sometimes that feels like I’m doing the right thing and trusting God and some days it feels like I’m being fake).

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If you are new (ish) here….I’m Trina. A Midwestern girl married to a Southerner. I am a mom to four kids (1 teenage girl + 3 boys). I’m a writer and a, sometimes, stylist. I’ve been blogging for almost 10 years (holy cow) at  La La Lovely and I just finished writing my first book, which will be out April 2018.

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Lately, I’ve been feeling kind tired of editing photos and figuring out what to post. I’d rather just share life. The big things in my life are Jesus, my family, writing, finding beauty and sharing it with others. I believe beauty is all around. It is in all the obvious places. It is in the least expected places–buried among what’s broken, packed away in pain. It is God—“For God is sheer beauty, all-generous in love, loyal always and ever.” (Ps 100:5). (This is what my book is all about–finding and being found by beauty).

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Most of my blogging, over the years, has been sharing beauty found in the obvious places. Occasionally, sharing beauty found in the broken places. And this is where I feel a bit out of sorts. Where I feel between. Like I have to choose to share one or the other. All or nothing. Decorated spaces or broken places. Beauty that is tangible or beauty that is eternal.

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The thing is, while I was pumping out pretty pictures into this space, I spent the bulk of my time mining for beauty in personal dark places. I really didn’t even know I was looking, at first. I was in survival mode (two babies under two at the time too). And to survive I spent a lot of time talking to God, reading His Word and scribbling out my soul into my journals. I knew God’s presence was with me, but what I didn’t realize was that I was in the presence of BEAUTY. And that changed everything.

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I’m a different person than I was five years ago. My heart has been changed and repaired by a beautiful God who is a Father, Friend, and Redeemer. I still have rough edges and hurts and pain to work through–daily. My eyes are opened and my heart wide-awake to broken and bruised souls and I want to use my life–this space–to encourage, to share a salve, to talk about life–here and now and eternal.

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I also want to share obvious beauty. A home that inspires, products I love, books I think you might want to read.

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So I think I’ll do both. And I hope you’ll stay. For a quick hit of pretty. For the purpose, we can find in pain.

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I hope to share more of my life. I’ll still be private (whatever that looks like as a writer and in the age we live in) but I’ll also be vulnerable. I’ll be me.

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I hope you will be you and share, too. A reply. A comment. A thought. A recommendation.

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Let’s Continue to find beauty together!

XO . Trina

P.S. I’m feeling the same thing about Instagram. In fact, this post started for that space (I’m struggling to post there) and got too long. Over there I’m also being real and vulnerable about what’s freaking me out today . . .

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commented on September 15th 2017 at 5:18am

i have often found myself in a liminal space lately. having left behind some portion of what came before, but having not yet landed on what comes next.

it sort of messes with my ideas about my identity. about my motivations. about my purpose.

all good things to consider, but not comfortable to be in the middle of. thanks for sharing.

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replied on September 17th, 2017 at 9:31pm

Hi Bryan! Middles are hard. I fight them (looking to the past, anxious about the future) but I’m finding that this is where life is…in the middle. This is where we live. It’s day in and day out. Where we sort out what was and become who we need to be in order to take on tomorrow. And yes to identity, motivations, and purpose… I get that…I’ve been sorting through that in my middle too. Carry on, friend!

commented on September 15th 2017 at 2:37pm

I’ll read whatever you write , but would love to hear more about your home and family.

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replied on September 17th, 2017 at 9:31pm

Thank you Giggi! I hope to write more about that in the coming months! xo. t

commented on September 15th 2017 at 6:20pm

Trina,

I completely understand where you are coming from…. I was there a few years back.
I love seeing the beauty you post…. When I look out the window, I actually think of you. When I look out at the beauty of this world, I remember to look at the in between. You posted once, windows of your house where you grew up and the windows once had applied diamond shapes which were removed but have left a slight shadow in certain light. It was magical and beautiful. A small memory of your childhood you were able to share with your small children.

Beauty in all spaces.

Callie

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replied on September 17th, 2017 at 9:36pm

Callie! Hope you are well! Oh my…you remember that…that totally warms my heart. Yes, those shadows still appear in certain light and on very cold days–it does feel magical. Thank you for your words, and for looking for beauty in all spaces! xo .Trina

commented on October 3rd 2017 at 7:42pm

Amen!
I have been blogging for a long time, and mostly just for myself and to make memories out of the ordinary moments in my life. I have read so many times that a blog should be streamlined and mostly stick to one subject, but I’ve realized over the years that it’s my space to share whatever I want in that moment. Sometimes the “rules” of social media restrict the very creativity that we are wanting to share.
Keep doing your thing!

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replied on October 5th, 2017 at 11:05am

Totally agree! Thanks so much for sharing, Leah! Xo