do you ever just quit your day? before it can quit you.
i’m learning to give myself permission to do just that.
sitting down for a day, instead of sitting out on life.
when life feels too heavy, why not just drop it? drop everything.
because, sometimes nothing and everything matter all at once.
at once you, all of the sudden, realize that the things you must do for that day, can wait for doing. like snowflakes pack and pile into mountains, in turn they also just melt right into nothing. something and nothing. and, the only thing that really matters is what matters in the deepest parts of your heart. so you stop and take care of what matters all at once. at now. whether it’s loved ones or you. yourself.
the bills will be there tomorrow. boxed macaroni and cheese won’t matter, really. cleaning will only add a short instant of the order you are trying to orchestrate. and, no one needs the post you are planning as much as you need a place to be peace or be at peace.
sometimes you just stumble upon something. a singular something. an image on the internet speaking beauty and speaking directly to you. those click click clicking moments online where you find something you weren’t even looking for. and, what you were looking for you no longer need.
i stumbled upon this image of a pretty haired woman painting the most beautiful moon scene. i was taken with the colors. the black onyx like night and many a moons in many a colors. colors that calm and collide. one melting right into the next. so i started down the clicking trail.
first to the vsco grid that i poured over, and learned belonged to stella maria baer.
the southwest scenes. the greys mixed with clay colored every-things, under a pink patterned sky. a soul sigh. i’ve been drawn to the colors of the southwest since i was eleven. and, again when i was twenty and every year after that i spent time in tucson, making it feel like second home of mine. it’s funny how colors and patterns and places and feels stick with you and reappear over the years.
i click clicked again, until i ended at art. stella maria baer is an artist and her work is stunning. i don’t know if i could decide which moon i’d want to make my own. one moon or many?
but, that desert moon (above), is full of meaning. layer up on layer of it. i’d love to one day sleep under a moon like that.
for more inspiration you can follow stella on instagram. she is my new favorite follow for sure.
do you have any recent favorite follows? share in the comments!
this bedroom ,which looks so fresh and springy but cozy enough to keep warm under those blankets for winter. exactly the combo i’m craving right now.
clearly, not seeing flowers out the window during winter…. but on the window? this is the way.
agreed. because, these days all i seem to wear is black, but my mind – it is totally technicolor.
this gorgeous necklace. such a pretty pretty pendant.
oven baked fries with sea salt. i could never break up with fries so i figure i better find healthy to spend time with them.
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what are you loving this week
i look for books, and books find me.
i look in bookstores, because a bookstore is not just one place, it is many. within the walls are pages, and within the pages; places, people and practices that you can peek into and possibly take with you. you can take your escape. you can start your excavate. i find this possibility promising. i also look online, when the looking is late at night. one click leading to another until the final one that is the promise of a package in your post. and, then there are others who do the looking for me. friends that recommend. and, a mom who still seems to know what is needed to grow. a grandmother and a father who’s shelves i never pass by. instead, i study. i study the shelves crowded with years upon years of wisdom through written word, calling out to me. just the titles alone are telling. they tell of growth, of past pain, of purpose, of personality and of life living.
i’ve listed all the books (that i can remember) that i read last year:
i had a blog post, almost (on books). and, then school was cancelled, again (brrrr). so, instead of words, i give you a recipe. a recipe for shredded slow cooker beef tacos to be exact. the kind of cooking that is great for slowed down snow days or days so fast you can’t find time to cook.