i am afraid of spiders.
i am afraid of flying.
i am afraid i am not good enough.
much of my life has been defined by my fears.
ever since i was a little girl i’ve been afraid. the green drapes in my bedroom were the same color as the wicked witch of the west (I’m certain), someone might break into the house, airplanes just do not make sense, and what if I am not doing enough?!
i’ve made many decisions based upon fear. i’ve answered opportunity over and over again with a “no” based upon my calculations of what could happen and what might go wrong.
other times, I’ve taken the advice to “just do it afraid” (thank you, Joyce Meyer) and managed to sweat my way through things that terrify me. as i’ve gotten older, i’ve found that regret feels worse than fear and i’m finding, that i’d rather feel fear than regret. i’ve used this thought to filter more recent decisions.
last spring, i sweated and breathed deeply for 8 hours on a plane over the ocean to go on an overseas trip that i didn’t want to regret taking. it was during that trip that i was chased down with the truth that…
C O U R A G E is there for the taking.
Psalm 31:24 says, “Be strong and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for, hope for and expect the Lord!”
the truth is, it’s not a matter of mustering up enough courage or finding it, its just a matter of taking it. and notice it starts with, “LET your heart”…..”take courage.”
letting your heart take it is the starting place. allowing yourself is the place where courage grows. so let go. let go of what you think you can or can’t do (or, what others have told you can or can’t do), who you are, who you were, and who you are afraid to be and LET your heart (your true self) take courage. take courage to be who god has created you to be. live and enjoy the life he has designed for you!
*this is a post i wrote for original. you can read the rest of the post here (. . . .sometimes we take courage + start to sink)
more soulfull posts here (and, a bit on peace).
i have been thinking a lot about vacation. like a real vacation. not a business trip. not a conference. not a family holiday trip. a straight up nothing to do but vacation vacation. it’s been a little too long. while my favorite places to go almost always include europe and exploring, i’ve been dreaming of a beach (most recently this pink beach) lately. sitting, listening, reading. nothing to do and no agenda.
i have no beach vacation planned, but i do like to plan all kinds of trips, even if only for my one day some day wish list. the other day i happened upon chateau de la resle, a luxury retreat in burgundy, france and i thought it looked pretty amazing and like something i needed to share. france is always a place i want to visit. i’ve only been once for a few days and it seems like that was forever ago. i’ve never been to a chateau and hadn’t envisioned a modern one, but i’m liking what i see.
this staircase is worth saving in a one day, some day house kind of design file!
thursdays always require a little escape, even if it’s virtual . . . so click through to see more of this modern chateau, complete with a sauna.
if you’ve been reading for awhile than you probably know that i have a thing for chairs (chairs and light fixtures, to be exact). i seem to collect chairs like others collect things like salt and pepper shakers. i’m not bias, because, i like hanging chairs, built in window seats, loungy leather ones, old velvety ones passed down from grandma’s, garage sale fix me ups, and brand new modern ones. while a chair seems to act more like a functional accessory in a room, i usually find it to be the star piece. no matter where you put a chair in a room it will surely make a statement (comfy, pretty, cozy, stately!).
this summer, while making a few updates around the house, i added this beauty, called the tremont chair, from high fashion home, to my living room and i’m loving it. it’s substantial while still being light, bright and airy. the detail work on the frame of the chair is so delicately pretty….it almost has a twig like design which mirrors the woods that can be seen through the windows, behind it.
this spanish bedroom + the rest of the home. i think i want to blow up an old black + white like that.
the pink sands on the elofonisi beaches in crete, greece. i need to go here one day.
homemade bounty bars. raw ones, actually.
this bag by swift studios + everything in their shop.
her hair color. pretty perfect. i’m starting to get more greys + am needing to color a little more often. have you started to grey? and, if so what age?
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what are you loving this week?
i’m not sure what it is that you are trying to succeed or maybe just survive at, but don’t quit.
whether you are trying or striving or hanging on by a thread. maybe you are in slow long time or just made a decision to try something new or make a few changes. don’t second guess. don’t doubt. don’t quit. this running seems to be messing more with my mind and my heart more than with my body (which should say a lot because my feet feel like that might fall off). this weekend, i ran my longest yet, 7 miles (honestly 6.75 ish). i ran 4 miles with my running friends and then finished with a 5k. i was happy after i did it, but wanted to die in the doing and all weekend all i could think about was quitting or mustering up the energy to just pysch myself up to make it a few more weeks. i got up and ran this morning. the truth is, running is certainly not my biggest obstacle in life right now. there are things in my life, probably like yours, that are bigger than me, heavier than i carry and with no real solution in sight. running, right now for me, just mirrors real life living. and, in real life there are days when i sit down, days when i walk and days where i run and days where i can’t seem to catch my breath. and, then i repeat. but, maybe that is somewhat of the secret – - repeating. repeat. repeat. repeat.
maybe this will encourage you today, as it did me . . .
the stronger the urge to quit, the closer you must be to succeeding.
so carry on lovelies and care for each other. breathe in. breath out. put one foot in front of the other. and, don’t be afraid to ask a friend to walk with you (in your life living), if you feel alone, or need help to carry, if your load is too heavy. somethings are literally just too heavy to carry on your own. and, if you are having a day where you are feeling a little muscle, care for those along your way. the people on your path, because, as the other quote says,
“be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about.”
xo . t